San Francisco Break!

My honey and I took a trip to San Fran for the weekend to reunite with some of his family as well as take a short break from our lives in Seattle. So...here are some random pictures from our little venture.

Some graffiti that we passed on our drive through little Italy.

Biggest chinatown. Lots of chinese people. Feels like you're in a foreign country.

Eating some delicious clam chowder.


Really cute figurines at a japanese garden gift shop.

Lovely couple pic

Soaking in some sun while waiting for the cable car.

Have you ever wondered what kind of sound hummingbirds make. I sort of thought they didn't make a noise at all, but as I was watching the skyline I heard this annoying (almost like squawking) bird sound and looked over to see this tiny thing perched on the top of a street lamp. Although it's sound was not as graceful as I would have imagined, hummingbirds are a good sign.

In-n-Out. Animal fries of course

Cute little baked goodies. Love the mini turtles!

First thing I ate in San Fran was a banana split cupcake. Way too sweet.


Pics of our hotel bathroom.


The amazing dinner we had our first day there.

Stuck no more!!!!!!

I know my last entry, which seems like ages ago, was a very depressing negative one. I'm happy to say that I am feeling better now that I am out of that "my life sucks" funk. I just got back from the testing center and passed my last test to get my licenses. I start work this coming Monday I'm also excited cuz me and my honey are going to San Francisco this weekend, just the two of us.

A friend of mine randomly told me to look at the big picture and not feel stressed about the troubles you have right now, but look at how it will turn out in the long run.

I always knew that, but sometimes hearing it from someone else puts new meaning in it.

Anyways, my birthday was yesterday. I am 23 years old now, OMG!!!!!!!! 7 more years and I will be 30!!!!!! Time is running out!

Here are a few of my favorite gifts that I received this year.

LG ice cream in pink!!! I know its not the most high tech phone and a downgrade from my old onw, but I love this phone to death because of the LED lights and its just so cute in pink. At first I thought a pink phone was just way too...cutesy in the disgusting way...but I absolutely love this phone.

Fujifilm Instax Mini!!! Cute little polaroid pictures. I've just always wanted one.

Last but not least. I love perfume and when I received this I fell in love. Chanel Coco Mademoiselle. Smells like heaven and it lasts all day :)))

STUCK

"Love is like playing the piano. First you learn the keys, then you learn the rules. Then you leave the rules and play by what's in your heart."

You know how magazines always have advice and tips on relationships, sex, love, yada yada ya. Well I feel this quote, I'm not sure who it's from, sums up more accurately; love, relationships, sex, etc.

That's the sucky part right cause it would be so much easier if you knew the rules, but unfuckingfortunately there are no rules. Another thing that bothers me about this quote is, how exactly do you know what's in your heart? And if by some chance you do, how do you know it's pure and not something that the media, religion and all other societal bullshit rattled into your brain.

What if love is just a big overblown concept that's brainwashed us all into thinking its the key to solving all problems. It's the lack of rules and order in love that make the whole thing seem mysterious and force people to lean on it like a religion. When something is unexplainable and unable to really define in one simple way I guess it confuses people and they just surrender to it like it's some force above our control. To be truly honest, as much as I love being in love and listening to all these songs that tell you all you need is love. I hate it at the same time because its just way too unstable, unreliable, frustrating and confusing.

ok...

Relationships are just too hard. That is the truth and the reason for my nonsense rant. Some days I feel like I'd be better off solo, but then other days I realize that life would be so lonely. It makes me wonder if I'm bipolar. Of course people always tell you that relationships take work and it will not always be easy, but I just don't understand how people have that kind of patience. The feel like the only way that I could be that patient is if I were dead or in a coma.

Anyways, I'm in that stage of the relationship where the physical attachment has died down. The passion, mystery and adventure has gone down the drain. Basically, sex is boring. This is not the only problem of course, but it really doesn't help. I know I heard on a lecture on TV that in the beginning of a relationship, your body releases a chemical called dopamine that is somehow tied with new love and sex, which gradually runs out. Then there's another chemical that kicks in later on called oxytocin which is tied to warm affectionate feelings. I guess the oxytocin keeps on running thru our bodies indefinitely and we should learn to embrace the oxytocin and leave the dopamine behind. BUT!!...who wants to leave the dopamine?!?! What if I want more than just warm fuzzy feelings. It really makes me wonder if humans are just not meant to be in monogamous relationships.

Isn't it sad how as you get older and your relationships get more serious, all the fun stuff has to go out the window! I guess our ideas on what is fun change as we get older too...

It's 5 am and I'm worried I'm not making any sense now, but the point of my entry is not just about sex, even tho it was a big bulk of what I had to talk about. What happens when you get to a point where you feel like things will drift away and instead of trying to fix it, you spend all your time debating whether its worth fixing. I know I'm really pessimistic, restless and that bipolar theory may be true so it may just be the stress talking, but I really worry about how things will end up.

It all depends on my attitude. I know. I just wish there were ways to help my attitude

Hopefully next entry will be more positive, but I really just had to rant this time.

Good Night!

I Want a Red Mill Burger!!!!

So...I woke up this morning craving this! I always do when I drink the night before. I feel like I could eat everything the next morning :) I'm not a big burger person, the greasy oily taste just really gets to me, but Red Mill Burgers and In-N-Out are a total exception

Wanted to tell you a little story about an incident I had last night. It was a little gathering at a friend's place. There is this guy that came to the gathering. He happens to be a good friend of my honey which doesn't make me like him any more. Anyway, this guy purposely pronounces my name wrong through the entire night. I know he knows how to pronounce my name because we had met before and I remember him being a really nice guy actually, but after last night he is officially a jerk in my book. I even confronted him about pronouncing my name wrong all night even after so many people corrected him. You will not believe how rude he was when I asked him about it. He says "Does it matter?" WTF He also continues to sneak in rude comments to me and I just don't understand why he would be so mean to me since I am someone he barely knows!!!! I guess he's known for being socially awkward, but I remember him being just fine the last time I had met him. I don't know maybe I was just drunk and imagining all this, I just felt really surprised that some guy I don't really even know could be so rude!!!!

...OK, the venting is over :)

...I will try to be mature about this and not expect an apology from him next time we meet

...although I fully believe I deserve one!!!!

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It's actually a sunny day in Seattle! Hope everyone has a lovely weekend regardless of weather!

Seattle = Rain = Depression = :(

Here's a pic of me in Leavenworth's Bavarian Village with their awesome bratwursts! Yummm!!! highlight of the trip, made up for the car accident on the way. I wore so many layers but I still felt really cold! Especially my hands and feet! They have an awesome gourmet cheese shop called "The Cheesemonger's Shop." After eating some of the delicious cheese there I can't wait to go back and fill my trunk with all the varieties of cheese they have (you see why my diet doesn't work lol)

A cute little husky pup I got to babysit for a minute while the owner used the potty. Puppy smelled like soap & love :)
Insane collection of creepy dolls plus me hiding in the background.


Just ordered this chemise cuz I always sleep in shorts and a T-shirt and I wanted something that made me feel preeettyy when I sleep for a change.

Second purchase from VS was this really cute bikini, exact same color as in the picture. I will probably need a tan and a diet to look this good, but hey I can try to work on that. Really got to cut down on the VS shopping!! :0

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...And to the topic. After graduation I've noticed I get stressed easier and often feel really depressed. The Seattle rain doesn't help either of course. I feel like my life has become a monotonous cycle repeating itself every 24 hours. For the past few months I thought it was just me, but after bringing it up with my friends it sounds like it's a common issue with them as well. I'm starting to think class of 2009 is cursed! I've been getting really sensitive to things I've never paid attention to before. I argue more with my honey. I feel more vulnerable to getting hurt which starts making me think that I am just plain weak. The stress has gotten easier to deal with as time goes on. The cure is really just my attitude, but that is pretty difficult for me cuz unfortunately I'm naturally just a pessimistic person. I've found that to help me from feeling depressed I work on finding little things to do that make me happy such as visiting my favorite tea shop or going on a date with my honey. Little things like that are what keep me from completely falling through. I'm really thankful for these everyday things that keep me smiling. These days I also hold dear to me the advice my teacher from high school gave me. "Don't sweat the small stuff," and I completely agree with the saying! I'm hoping to use this blog to remind myself to try to stay positive and don't dwell on little things that don't really matter. I used to keep a paper journal all through my high school days which helped keep me from feeling stressed, but I dropped that hobby when I started college and now I think I'll try to blog more often to keep my stress level down.

Like I said before, SO HOT!

randomness update

So...few things happened over the past couple months. I got into a car accident and I quit my job. Although it's not the best time to be quitting jobs, I am so happy to have quit because the environment/people were just all wrong for me and I truly felt it wasn't a place I wanted to stay for a long time. I definitely learned a lot and feel grateful for the experience but it's just not a place I want to get stuck in. I could vent about all the horrible things about the job, but I won't. STAY POSITIVE!!! Oh and the car accident was pretty scary. It happened on the drive up to Leavenworth through the pass on New Year's Eve. I spent the countdown filing a claim with my insurance company over the phone. :( BUT damages to the car are all fixed and no one got hurt so its all water under the bridge now.

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Recently, I've been listening to Robin Thicke's new album Sex Therapy. SO HOTT!!!!

Here are some random photos I came across on my computer out of boredom, some recent some old.

*Memories, well they can be inviting, but some are altogether mighty frightening* ah I remember when that song first came out :)

Blue Man Show in Chicago, I GOT TO GO ON STAGE!!! That was so so cool and I remember being really nervous when they picked me out of the crowd and took me on stage. I got this banana gunk sprayed on me and it stuck to my hair and I smelled like bananas for the rest of the night.

At my friend's b-day dinner party. Got bored since I got there a little early and decided to fit myself into an old school safe they used for deco

I just got a texture perm recently, however I am too lazy to style it and so it looks like this most of the time. I really like the perm cause it looks really natural, none of my friends knew I had a perm, and because I can make the curls more defined by styling as well as have them more relaxed when I don't want to do the work.

My only new year's resolution is to enjoy life. I can stress all day about my failed dieting, my constant battle with anxiety at the thought that I'm running out of time (sounds psycho I know) and the fact that I really haven't figured out what the hell I'm doing, but all that worrying is just a waste of my time. I'm gonna try to live each day doing the best that I can in work, relationships, academics and eventually I'm sure things will fall into place.